NeNe Leakesis remembering her last moments with her late husbandGregg Leakes.
In a touching video titled “I’m lost without you” shared on YouTube,The Real Housewives of Atlantastar compiled a series of photos and videos of Gregg — whodied from colon cancerin September 2021 at age 66 — and recalled the couple’s last night together as well as his celebration of life in a voiceover.
“The morning of Sept. 1, 2021, my whole life changed,” NeNe, 55, began, sharing how his condition had worsened due to his colon cancer towards the end of his life. “That morning I came downstairs, Gregg looked totally different than the way he had previously looked and I got really upset.”
Gregg and NeNe Leakes.Paul Marotta/Getty
“I was like, ‘Oh my God, what happened to Gregg? What have you guys done to him?'” she continued, recalling how she questioned his hospice caretakers. “He was pulling and fighting and kind of like, just trying to take his shirt off and he was just totally different. He had not ever been this way… Yes, I knew he was passing but I just thought somebody had done something to Gregg.”
While Gregg usually denied taking morphine or other pain medications, NeNe instructed his caretaker to give him a little medication after Greg looked “very confused” and was “struggling to breathe.”
Knowing that he was “close to passing,” the reality star recalled filling their home with Gregg’s loved ones who “never left his side.” His six children — Daryl, Damian, Dexter, Denton, Katrina, their shared son Brentt and her son Bryson — were with him during his final days.
NeNe Leakes and Gregg Leakes.Paras Griffin/Getty
His friends and family spent time with him “around the clock” for several minutes at a time, and when Gregg grew tired of visitors, he would watch his favorite western specials.
When he finally died, NeNe recalled how “all of us kind of gathered in the foyer area of the house and kind of held hands and prayed.”
Because Gregg never wanted a funeral or to be “buried in the ground,” his family members threw acelebration of lifeat the Bravolebrity’s Linnethia Lounge in Atlanta, Georgia, in order to honor his memory.
“My life was turned upside down after losing my husband Gregg, now I’m forced to navigate life alone after sharing it with my partner of 27 years,” she wrote in the video’s description. “I have taken time to reflect and now look forward to new beginnings. I’m hopeful for what life will bring and welcome you to witness my journey.”
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NeNe Leakes and husband Gregg Leakes visit the SiriusXM Studios on December 12, 2014 in New York City.Cindy Ord/Getty
NeNe and Gregg were first married in 1997 before getting divorced in 2011. The couple remarried in June 2013 and shared their son, Brentt.
Gregg was originallydiagnosed with Stage III colon cancerin 2018. He was in remission for two years before beinghospitalized for six weeksafter his cancer returned. He died in September 2021.
source: people.com
